The Fire Within You

No war in anger was ever won. ―Selena Gomez

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When asked how he seems to always treat everyone right, a Ph.D. business professor shared a few insights. “Everyone sees the world in a different way. You weren’t born to click with everyone. It is quite hard to remember this, but everyone just wants to be nice on the inside. It is quite difficult to grasp, but even the person you hate the most is loved by someone else in this world.”

Theories are theories. Pieces of Advice are pieces of advice. Feelings are feelings. When we are angry, we forget all of these words. We couldn’t help but spill poison from our mouth. We couldn’t help but shout an ugly pool of wrath. We couldn’t help but burn what we have built to the ground. Just like that, we watch ourselves die in the blame we create. Just like that, we watch ourselves drag someone else into our flame.

The more we suppress our waves of anger, the crazier it becomes. It’s like the fire is trying to find a way to escape no matter how many battles it has to go through or how much energy it drains. More often than not, you are most likely going to burn yourself through the process of vanquishing your fire.

You don’t have to attack your fire. It doesn’t really have to completely vanish. You probably have a big problem if you cannot feel anything at all. The key is not to kill; the key is to acknowledge. It is in human nature that we are unhappy when things do not go our ways. What is the point of living if everything goes our ways? Are you not brave enough to face your anger? If so, you might be afraid of yourself.

You do not have to swim in your own rage. You do not have to throw things at the walls, feeling satisfied because you break something instead of fathoming your own problems. You do not have to stab yourself for the mistakes of the world. Sit still and say to yourself “I am angry”. Then breathe slowly. Fill your lungs with air and positivity. See? You’re still alive. That, alone, means your possibilities are still infinite. Given a choice between agony and peace, why wouldn’t you choose the latter?

You probably think you cannot meditate or whatsoever at the moment of an argument. You are probably afraid that everything is your fault when you don’t fight back. You might think it means that you accept the accusations against you. Then you start saying all the things you don’t mean, hoping to shield yourself from the guilt. Before you know it, you create bullet holes which cannot be healed by mere bandages.

The things somebody else says would not hurt as much if you do not agree. If you let bad things slide through you as if you were Casper the Friendly Ghost, you probably manage to decrease your level of pain. People might think you are mean for ignoring them. They might think you are emotionless robots who do not have a big enough heart to care. We don’t have to fight back to show we care. Love means we grant our loved ones the power to hurt us. If they do not use the power wisely, it defines them. Not us.

Remember that, at the end of the day, we do not want to blur out ourselves because of their definition. You should not let those words devastate you or your pride. You should not develop eternal insecurities for the sake of others’ future regret. Words hurt. They do. They bleed through. But it never does you any good to slash them back. People are only able to give as much love to you as they give to themselves.

Martin Luther once said that “Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that”. When the fire arrives, greet it with love. Don’t suppress that part of yours, even if you hate it. Accept it. Cherish it. Breathe through it, knowing you win. You win because you do not add more fire. You win because you do not keep burning yourself. When the fire arrives, greet it with care. It doesn’t matter what people say. They will remember the good side of you. Do you want to be remembered for the things you regret having said? Or do you want to be remembered for you?

When the fire arrives, keep calm. No reason to crash that vase on your table. No use to tear apart their title. Love means we grant our loved ones the power to hurt us. But it also means they grant us the power to hurt them. Use that power wisely. Because it defines us.

Not them.


10 thoughts on “The Fire Within You

    1. What makes you angry?

      It can be quite frustrating when you free up all of your time for somebody, but they would not even spare you some of their time even when they are free. The capacity to take things for granted to all humans is infinite. However, people should at least notice that priority is a choice. Just because they are number 1 on our list, doesn’t mean they should feel any more superior.

      How bad can you become? 

      I have trust issues because I have been betrayed when I was just 6 years old. I do not let people in easily; they have to work really hard to understand me. But once they become my friends, I will remember them until the end of my life. I can be a major nightmare to the rest of the strangers, but my friends would know I never mean it.

      What is the secret of your success story so far?

      The special recipe for my success is none other than doing what I love. Nobody is perfect, but some were born near the perfect line than the others. I was never one of them. There are millions of things which take me forever before I learn how to do. Things come so easy to others. Never for me. The plus side to this is: I am generally happier. I see the meaning in life because I am constantly working so hard for what I want.

      How selfish can you be?

      According to a Buzzfeed quiz, I am 13% selfish (yep!!! I had to take a quiz for this). Everyone comes to me for life tips, pep talks, and relationship advice (even before I started dating). I love to see people’s smile and I like to take a long time to find beauty in little things. Despite this, I am a person of the bigger pictures. Sometimes I miss out details when I am in focus. It could be a “seen” in text messages, an unexpected silence during a fight, a slow walk away from friends and relatives who repeatedly cross the boundaries.

      What is your wish?

      I want to be me. I want to explore the world and uncover mysteries. I want to try an infinite number of new things that will improve me but strengthen my core value. I want to inspire people and make them feel like they are nothing less than perfect. I want my loved ones to see the depth of my effort even if sometimes it does not show. I am proud of humanity. I am proud to be human, yet I believe I am so much more than just a human.

      These questions are from Philosophy Through Photography. Thank you so much for believing in the journey of Xfinite. Thank you for nominating me as one of the Mystery Blogger Award candidates. I totally did not expect this. I might have broken a few rules. Hope you don’t mind.

      My questions?

      What is the meaning of your life?

      Please do not feel pressure to answer. You can answer it to yourself. Look at something you love, pick it up, and smile. It could be the reflection of yours in the mirror (not that you can pick that up).


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